I can’t believe that I finally did it. I had been putting it off and putting it off but with my 50th birthday having come and gone the team kept on at me that I must do a shoot of my own. Not only to have the great experience, which it turned out to be, but also so that I could have a better understanding of how it felt on the other side of the camera.
So the date was set and as it approached I nonchalantly started to plan the theme determined that if I was going to do it, it had to be good and it had to be challenging both for me as an individual but also as a photographer.
I surfed the net and finally found a music video that summed me up.”I have a big booty’ by Jennifer Lopez. Now let me make it clear I no way imagined I could look that good, for a start off I don’t exercise and she does, but I liked the lighting set up and the black fishnet outfit she wore. So that was my theme, and I actually started to get excited.
Brad and I planned how we was going to do it and tweaked it to suit our studio set up and had to make do with some of the set but it worked which was the main thing.
The day finally came. Not only had I had a sleepless night thinking about it but I wasn’t really sure if I could be bothered, we had been so busy with my birthday sale that I was more interested in that.
I got up that day and just threw a load of bits in my bag. Thinking no I can’t take that its a bit saucy and I have got to wear this in front of Brad and Juliette not something I really fancied much, but then as the time came closer to me leaving home I thought oh what the hell chuck it in, I might get brave enough to wear it and I didn’t want to regret not taking it. I then decided to take a bottle of my favourite champers, I thought right if I am going to do this I might aswell have a glass of champers and enjoy it.
So got to the studio and the phone was going mad with sale bookings, we were supposed to start the shoot at 10am and eventually at 10.45am we got going.
The makeover was lovely, I am not used to being pampered but it felt great and Brad kept topping up my glass with bubbly so I became more and more relaxed to the point where I was a little tipsy.
Seeing myself in the mirror for the first time all made up was amazing I kept giggling thinking wowzer I don’t look half bad for a 50 year old.
We then went up to the studio and the real fun began. I actually wore the saucy outift that I wasn’t going to even take with me and felt pretty hot. It was a very liberating feeling. I went naked straight away and Juliette and Brad made me feel so comfortable and made sure I didn’t feel vulnerable. I was loving it.
I just kept posing and posing and giggling and giggling and then I saw the photos and OMG I couldn’t believe my eyes was that really me. I was HOT !!! I felt absolutely fantastic. I almost cried and cuddled Brad and Juliette and thanked them for talking me into it. I’d had a really fabulous day.
But the story doesn’t end there. I finally went home after Brad had posted one of the shots on Facebook – Let’s face it I had to put it on there as I always ask my ladies if I can use their photos so I couldn’t really not use mine could I. I secretly loved the comments, they were so so complimentary a real confidence boost – I walked in and the first thing hubby said was ‘well let’s have a look then’, I didnt think he would even remember I’d had a shoot let alone be interested but instead of him just looking and not saying much he was overwhelmed. I won’t go into too much detail but he couldn’t keep his hands off me all night, talk about give my marriage a boost. He loved them.
He couldn’t wait for the next day to see the other ones.
So despite my initial reluctance I learned so much. I now understand fully how my ladies feel and why they are nervous and apprehensive when they arrive, how they feel the need to describe what they see are their faults, and then the absolute amazing feeling of ripping your clothes off and posing and feeling like a superstar. I was a model for the day, I was JLO, and I felt and feel great. Good for me and I don’t care what people think or say, I am beautiful, I am woman
I loved loved my shoot and I know you will too.